somehow, i keep ending up wandering onto deviantart every year or so to update this journal. last time, dec of 06, i didnt have any new art to submit. i still dont, really. the last thing i drew was concept art for the CD i am working on..

which leads me to explain that my passion for the art of drawing has faded, and a new one, an even stronger one, has come forth.

ive been playing guitar for about 2.5 years now. i started with my friend's acoustic guitar [whom i was rooming with at the time - the summer before last i think - and whose trailer i tripped on LSD in for the first time, AND whose best friend of 10 years ((who was ALSO living with us at the time..)) is now my fiance and mother of my son, who is due on january 25, 08. his name is korbin. wow i've digressed in this little bracket zone.] recently ive been (using a fairly low quality mic - im broke for fucks sake) recording songs to metronome that i have been developing over that time, and have recorded them exactly as i want them to be, layering guitar tracks and using counterpoint to the best of my ability right now, and then putting drums over that using my keyboard. it's basically a cheap demo, that i am creating for personal satisfaction because one day, i will make a studio-quality CD from my home. it's really not that expensive, if you can handle saving money for a while. all in all, for my dream home studio, it would be about $1400. that's guitar, bass, drums, a tabletop CD-RW multi-track recording station and all the condenser microphones that i would need, which is basically just one for guitars and vocals, and then a set for the drumkit. one person can create an entire album on their own. i find it fascinating what we can do with technology.. it's very powerful stuff.

i have a fucking shitload of fun doing it, which is very important as well. i dont know if this could or would ever be my job, but, you know... i realllly wouldnt mind that. that would be pretty sweet. i could use a small fortune. buy some mountainous land with streams and shit. build a few nifty solar-powered efficient houses. have plenty of forest. have a 3-story basement with hydroponic capability and a very well made ventilation system with fans, all this powered by the solar energy gathered during the day. grow corn to be used to make ethanol. i would buy a fucking solar powered bike. or an ethanol car, to be fueled by the corn i myself grow.


heh.. the american dream. to be self-sufficient; truly free. i guess i am just chasing the american dream. aren't wel all? we will always be chasing it as long as these governments are around treating us like cash producing cattle that keep their empires of control alive. the currency in our wallets is just a symbol, of our fielty to the system that has us by the balls. this whole human existence just makes us want more. what we want cant and wont last forever.. but we chase it anyway. desperate 'cause being alive lasts as long as we can keep ourselves from slitting our own throats.

well.. these are all just dreams. i will only be able to accomplish so much. all i know, is that one day i will have made a studio-quality CD. it will be done. it will rock.